Count them up like  
Mosquito bites on a body  
Adding strangers’ names  
To a list on my phone  
In drunk semi darkness  
The club lights making everything seem 
Ecstatic  
It was always 
One more  
Collecting kisses  
To keep in my pocket  
For god knows what  
Some affirmation of my  
Desirability  
A taste of every zodiac   

Kissing girls in corridors  
Covered in red lipstick 
Tell strangers  
You find them  
Beautiful  
Ask to kiss,  
The worst they can say is  
No. 

She grows greedier  
That creature crouched  
In the pit of my stomach  
Ready for 
More 
She rasps 
Into the darkness of my mouth  
An Insatiable thing  
Clicking her teeth  
In delight  
Lizard like  
Animal  
Forgetting their faces  
Focused solely on  
One 
More 
Kiss 

But it is not  
This marathon  
I made it out to be  
Where kisses blur and become  
Something barely remembered  

Still she is 
Waiting, 
Impatient, 
For something  
Unnamed  
For someone to say  
You are alive  
You are loved 
Collect the proof  
On your phone  
As though  
It means  
Anything