20 (1)

So I’m turning 20…
Hooray! Huzzah! Woo hoo?
I’m told it’s a big birthday
They say, “it’s exciting for you”

Scared feels more true to me with
How my age has dropped the ‘teen’
It gave 18 an exciting sheen
That then rubbed off on 19

Soon… I’m turning 20
Help it’s chipped all 19’s lustre,
It was only a buffer from my fears
Now they strike with all they can muster.

Someone stop me turning 20,
Hang on, ignore that part,
It just feels I have started
To find out… what’s in my heart?
Shut up you sappy shit.

20 (2)

Still not yet 20,
Heavy relief when I woke up today,
I still have time aplenty
To continue my neurotic way

Simply turning 20
How ‘bout it just be an age?
It’s supposed to occur magnificently
That just feels like a cage
So if I know this, why do I stress?
How come I can’t enjoy this birthday,
It’s supposedly the best, nothing less
Though it hounds me for a life plan right away

Oh shit I’m turning 20,
Knowing nothing of what to do,
Ambling into adult numbers
Yet no teen shield to guard my fear
Only maybe I can just relax
Keep going without turning life to the max.

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